8.17.2005
i am sitting here feeling sort of stunned, sad and somewhat guilty. my life seems to have come to the place where i have always wanted it to be. i am clear headed, completely certain about what i am doing and not questioning my decisions. not even in the most quiet voice. but there is a lot of disintigration going on around me.
my heart goes out to Dan. i was lucky enough to have been one of a very small group of people invited to his commitment ceremony to Steven (aka Rooster) and i am heartbroken for both of them.
there is a particular grace to bowing out before things get out of hand. i could only hope to have learned enough from my own mistakes and the example of the amazing people with whom i surround myself, to do the same if faced with the horrible situation of having to untangle.
as for the balance of the disintigration it will have to wait.
.: posted by landry 1:39 AM
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