3.06.2005
i dreamt that my father told me that he loved liz because she was "no bullshit" then she told me that she liked him for the same reason my father also confided, with a grin, that he loved her hair
then the bed blew straight up to the ceiling a blast that rendered her insides pulp there was blood and a hole in her middle and i screamed and tried to call 911 but i couldn't speak and i croaked into the phone to a woman who did not understand that i loved her and that i didn't want her to die in my arms and i told the woman on the phone that someone needed to get there fast that i didn't know how i was going to on and that i couldn't bear to watch her die she thought i was crazy and asked if i was seeing someone about it i told her to fuck off and she hung up on me my girl was dying and she FUCKING HUNG UP ON ME i called again this time from my cell phone so she wouldn't know it was me and she would get me some help (for fuck's sake!) it was a different woman and i still couldn't speak and i couldn't find the address to tell them where to find me and my girl and her guts and i was desperate and i was croaking i heard rustling from the bed and she was trying o get up and i ran from the phone to the bed and i told her not to move and that she couldn't die on me and that she should stay still and i screamed and she woke me up and said "its ok baby its not real. what happened?" i started to tell her through real tears, half asleep. and she fell asleep before i could finish.
.: posted by landry 11:19 PM
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