11.01.2004
i am in need of attention today.
that is the single hardest thing that i have to admit.
ever.
but in thinking about it, i realized that at least now, i recognize it.
before, i would have moped until i got attention...and if i didn't get what i was looking for i would start a fight.
hows THAT for learning early how to get what you want.
attention by any means necessary.
im still moping a little because my little peep wasn't loud enough and probably wasn't heard.
but i am not going to set anyone up to disappoint me.
which is my former M.O.
i make a small peep
so small that it goes un-noticed
so then i go into a bratty, dark mood because you were NOT paying attention.
this all sounds so childish now.
even though, knowing what i know, i still feel a little mopey.
.: posted by landry 2:30 PM
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