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10.18.2004

so
i was 18
i was in love
we broke up
i spent 24 hours breaking things.
it was scary and cathartic
and i had never felt that raw and emotionally out of control

i swore that it would never happen again.
and realized that the mess was part of something MUCH bigger
that it wasn't actually over
that we needed to do something in order to become grown-ups together
pretty smart for 18
or at least i think so

the spoiler of all this
was that one of my best friends at the time,
within days of our breaking up
decided that it was a good idea to accept his suggestion that they start making out
on her porch
so that some of my other friends, while driving by in a car, could see them.
and call me to advise me
that they wasted no time

i was FURIOUS with her.

the constant question was "why aren't you mad at HIM?!?!?"

because i had no reason to think that after we broke up he owed me anything.
but, i had a total of 3 girlfriends in high school.
because that was the sort of stuff that i believed that girls did.
the girls i became friends with were not like those girls.
i saw them as being like me
nothing should come between you and your girls.
and given the opportunity to make out with the bf or ex bf of one of your girls was NOT an option.
even if you REALLY wanted to.


so i was mangled over it
2 break-ups in 2 days

eventually the bf and i got back together
and ended up married
i never spoke to the girl again.

till today
she emailed me and i emailed back.













.: posted by landry 9:38 AM

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