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6.16.2003

since im complaining
shit happens and i go to her and i say "can you effing believe that shit?"
and she looks at me as cool as a cucumber and raises her one eyebrow and she says "of course i can"
she goes on to say, "its completely consistent behavior for that person. that person always does that. at least you can count on it"

damn
she rocks

and when i do something (mmmm like getting divorced or picking up my entire life and transplanting it to another country, um i mean state)
she also says, "you will be surprised at who rises to the occasion and who does not."
and everytime someone does something fucked up in response to how something i am doing effects THEM, i think about that.
and she is so right all the time.

i meet her for dinner at harvest and we have macaroni and cheese like we have a million different times over as many parts of our lives as we have had and i say how am i going to leave you and she says something that sounds superwise like we are grown ups and we move and follows it up with something funny and smartassed like yeah. how is it that you talked my ass into MOVING here and now you are leaving.
that was 9 years ago and 400 times of "whats a hairpie?!?!"
and that is not landry time. thats real.

and the time that i was sitting crying in the window of that big ass new shiny loft because i was afraid that i couldn't leave and she said "you will leave if you need to"
and then sitting in that same window in that big shiny soul-less loft looking at the sunset over the hudson and crying because my boxes were packed and i had never had a hand raised to me before that day by anyone and she said "come stay with me"
she has never wavered. she has never given my motives for anything i do or have done a second thought.
she calls me on my shit. but she has never once left me or made me question our friendship.

i am going, after work to build a shrine to her. i should have done it years ago.

.: posted by landry 5:24 PM

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